the time is now

I’ve been a procrastinator for as long as I can remember and I’m doing it again today. I decided a few days ago to finally start reading, “The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up” by Marie Kondo, which I bought ages ago after seeing a lot of online discussions and interesting pics on Instagram. I’m not sure why I finally decided to read it, but when I did it resonated with me on a very deep level. I was 3/4 through the book before I knew it and I’ve spend a lot of time thinking about the deeper meaning behind it ever since. I mean, I’m assuming most of us have decluttered or organized with varying degrees of success. I know I have. Over and over and over. And I still feel like I have too much or I don’t know what to do with what I have. There are days where I’d love to chuck everything into a bonfire and start fresh, as if the finality of a cleansing fire will act as a reset button for my life.

What clicked with me was the idea of respecting and acknowledging how all of these inanimate objects we surround ourselves with make us feel. I don’t agree with her entire thought process, but at the core I do. If we only surround ourselves with things that are useful and make us feel good, why wouldn’t that expand into other areas of our lives. Certainly if we feel bad about something we acknowledge that those feelings effect how we perform at work or with our interactions with others. So why not the reverse?

So what is my purpose in doing all of this? The surface answers are the typical:

  • I want my home to feel less cluttered
  • I want to feel more organized
  • I want to feel more at ease in my home, especially when I walk in the door

When I thought deeper about what these ideas mean to me I realized that what I’m really looking for is a well kept home and by extension, life. A place where I feel relaxed and have everything under control. And that’s when the epiphany hit me. I don’t feel in control and I haven’t for quite a long time. I’ve been behaving in a reactionary way to a lot of the stimulus around me instead of stepping forward and just getting things done. I need to move forward with the things that will improve my life. Those everyday* things that will just plain make me a happier person.

Now, will sorting through every item of my clothing along with everything else I own make me a better and happier person? I don’t know, but if I don’t try I’ll never know.

 

*and some not so every day things