joy of knitting

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I’ve had a mixed relationship with crafting this year. In the past I was more than happy to have many many items mid progress. It was exciting to start something fresh and new whenever the whim struck me. Now? Now I feel like I have too much in certain areas of my life. And this too much is bogging me down both mentally and spatially, which is probably why the KonMari method has sparked my interest.

As you’ve probably guessed, one of these areas is my crafting paraphernalia . Skeins of yarn, cross-stitch patterns, bundles of WIP’s that may never be completed and it’s creating a sense of duty that I don’t care for.

To alleviate this unnecessary tension I have sorted and prioritized a lot of items. Many have been given away or just plain trashed over the past few years. Even with all this I still feel like I have too much. That the crafting to do list is overwhelming and it’s taking the joy out of something that I do, well, for joy.

So what’s the solution? I put all the undone items away and selected one. One that will be a joy to work. One that the final result will bring me happiness. One that will remind me why I do these things to begin with.

For now that project is Stonecrop by Jared Flood. It’s not a particularly difficult pattern, but it has just enough to keep me interested. It’s the perfect project.

I’m about midway through the 4th pattern repeat with 8 more to go and since I’ve been averaging a little over a pattern repeat a week I should have a lovely new stole within the next few months. This is exactly what I need right now…

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Here is my Ravelry project page if you want to keep up.

the time is now

I’ve been a procrastinator for as long as I can remember and I’m doing it again today. I decided a few days ago to finally start reading, “The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up” by Marie Kondo, which I bought ages ago after seeing a lot of online discussions and interesting pics on Instagram. I’m not sure why I finally decided to read it, but when I did it resonated with me on a very deep level. I was 3/4 through the book before I knew it and I’ve spend a lot of time thinking about the deeper meaning behind it ever since. I mean, I’m assuming most of us have decluttered or organized with varying degrees of success. I know I have. Over and over and over. And I still feel like I have too much or I don’t know what to do with what I have. There are days where I’d love to chuck everything into a bonfire and start fresh, as if the finality of a cleansing fire will act as a reset button for my life.

What clicked with me was the idea of respecting and acknowledging how all of these inanimate objects we surround ourselves with make us feel. I don’t agree with her entire thought process, but at the core I do. If we only surround ourselves with things that are useful and make us feel good, why wouldn’t that expand into other areas of our lives. Certainly if we feel bad about something we acknowledge that those feelings effect how we perform at work or with our interactions with others. So why not the reverse?

So what is my purpose in doing all of this? The surface answers are the typical:

  • I want my home to feel less cluttered
  • I want to feel more organized
  • I want to feel more at ease in my home, especially when I walk in the door

When I thought deeper about what these ideas mean to me I realized that what I’m really looking for is a well kept home and by extension, life. A place where I feel relaxed and have everything under control. And that’s when the epiphany hit me. I don’t feel in control and I haven’t for quite a long time. I’ve been behaving in a reactionary way to a lot of the stimulus around me instead of stepping forward and just getting things done. I need to move forward with the things that will improve my life. Those everyday* things that will just plain make me a happier person.

Now, will sorting through every item of my clothing along with everything else I own make me a better and happier person? I don’t know, but if I don’t try I’ll never know.

 

*and some not so every day things