good times

The lazy blogger has struck again… and I have so much to talk about!

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it here, but we have been house hunting the past few months. And by that I mean we have spent almost every Saturday and Sunday traipsing around to various open houses looking and analyzing every detail of any home that fits our very specific criteria. It’s a mess out there people. I don’t know how many of you are privy to the ways of the San Francisco housing market, but it’s crazy town. The list price? A mere suggestion. Cash buyers? More than you would think possible. It’s been a bit daunting.

The good part though, is that we were not in any particular hurry, so being outbid by unseemly amounts wasn’t a huge deal. The great part is that last Tuesday we put in an offer for a place we really really liked. And we got it! Not without some good old fashioned trials and tribulations, but we are currently in escrow and crossing our fingers that the rest of the process goes off without a hitch. Even sitting here writing this a week later I’m still a bit in shock that we’re this close and I’m so super excited!

Part of the reason it was a little crazy making is that we had to sign all the docs and get our escrow account up and running on Wednesday (we accepted their counter offer that morning) cause we were leaving for New York City Thursday morning. Our timing is nothing if not impeccable.

Oh, and our trip to NYC? A-ma-zing*! Mike and Emily flew up to meet us and were able to meet up with several friends who live there now. It was really nice to spend a weekend walking the city, eating amazing* food with amazing* drinks, all in the company of great friends.

Good times, people, good times.

* just for you Mike…

no more guilt

Monday morning, at yoga, our instructor spoke about going about our daily activities from a place of love and not guilt. This really struck a chord with me. The reason? Every morning I sit down and write a to do list and every day I look at that list and then swiftly begin the process of procrastinating. Now mind you, most of these items aren’t difficult. Some may take time and some effort, but generally they’re not what you would think of as difficult items. Yet, I procrastinate and the more I procrastinate the guiltier I feel and then I procrastinate even more and then I feel like an ass for not getting stuff done.

So. Yeah. Not really helpful in feeling good about what one has accomplished for the day. I may be getting things done, but my brain puts up such a fight that it’s kinda exhausting. I just feel, well, over it. So here’s what I’m doing. I’m reminding myself why the item needs to be done. I know, sounds silly, but when I look at my to do list and I see wash dishes I’m changing that internal monologue from ‘I really should get this done before Joe* gets home cause the kitchen looks like crap’ to ‘I’m going to feel really good when this is done and the kitchen will look great without all the clutter’.

The other thing I realized while contemplating all of this is that I’ve been placing rules around things that I enjoy so that I’ll do them. Let me say that again, I’ve placed rules around things I enjoy so that I’ll do them. Is it just me or does that make zero sense? On that note there will be no more crafty Friday or whatever Tuesday posts. Clearly none of that was working and it just created guilt around something that I initially started because I love to write.

So instead of guilting my way through the day with all the should’s that hang out in my crazy brain I’m going to think about why I’m really doing them and work to turn my mind over to the joy of it… even for things as mundane as washing dishes.

What do you guys think? Are you living your life from a place of guilt or love? Also, while flitting around the internet I found this post about guilt that I really enjoyed.

 

* To be clear, Joe is not nagging me about things undone. This is all in the fabulous world of negative talk that goes on in my head.

focus

Good Morning 2013

I’m sitting here at my kitchen table, drinking a fresh cup of coffee, and watching The Rose Parade. It’s a good morning. It’s a morning that feels fresh with promise.

This year I’m going to focus on well, focus. When I make a decision to do something, whether it be to pick up the living room or learn something new, I need to focus. I find that I’m easily distracted or discouraged and that needs to be minimized. This year I have some fun and exciting things that I want to get into and success is going to rely on focus. I’ll need that impetus to push me forward into sticking with them once I start.

To that end I’ll be spending time every morning practicing meditation and also asking myself why I’m not moving forward. I guess that means their will be some self-reflection mixed in with that focus.

So here is to a great 2013 and I wish everyone happiness and success in all your endeavors.

What do you have in store for 2013?

memories

Brenda Dayne. For those of you not familiar with the Cast-On podcast and “If you’re cold, put on a sweater” fame, then you are totally missing out. Even if you’re not a knitter you should go take a listen because she have this amazing voice and always has something interesting and insightful to discuss. This was the reason that I had to get myself to A Verb for Keeping Warm this past Sunday so I could see/hear her in person. It was a no brainer, duh!

She read an essay that she had crafted and yes, I use the word crafted because she is able to put ideas together like nobodies business, it’s truly amazing.

It was about knitting, but it was also about memory and how things come together. I’m sure I won’t do it justice so I’m hoping that at some point she’ll publish it on her blog so I can point you to it. What I find amazing is how she can one moment be talking about her first sweater and then the next about the Method of loci and then her Memory Bag project and somehow tie it up as if these things were always meant to be together. That they were always related. That, is her genius.

To actually be in the same room with her as she spoke was a bit surreal for me. I discovered her podcast only a few episodes in so I’ve been listening to her since 2005 or so.  All those hours and I’ve never felt that even one of them was wasted. Not one.

Alas, I have no pictures of the event. I was too distracted to even think about it.

Also, I dropped off a wee memory bag with a story. I may share that story here at a later time or maybe not. It certainly gave me some things to think about.

I do have a picture of my teeny bag though.

the bloggess

What does a popular girl like me do on a Friday night? Why, go see the infamous (her word) Jenny Lawson read a chapter of her new book, Let’s Pretend This Never Happened. And it was totally worth it!

She brought a few of her friends with her… It was tough not to give that little guy a hug, except for the part where I thought he might gnaw on my face.

I’m not even sure what to say. I know, me unable to use or find words about something? How about super fantastic? Well, it will have to do, but it doesn’t do her justice. Not even close.

Here’s Joe and I with Jenny.

While she was signing my book Joe dominated the conversation with Chad Vader. I can’t take him anywhere…

I only have one regret tonight and that’s not getting the name of the woman sitting next to me. I love coming to something like this and meeting amazing people and I did that… and then I didn’t even ask here the name of her blog. Blurgh!

edited to add: totally forgot to add a link to Chad Vader… your welcome

FURIOUSLY HAPPY

I’m only part way into the first day of 2012 and I already feel fantastic, scratch that, I feel furiously happy (thanks Jenny!) and that’s how I want to feel the rest of the year and beyond. I went to a yoga workshop about manifestation this afternoon and came home with a lot of new perspective and things to ponder. One of those being, How will I choose to live my life? See the word choose there? Not want or think, but choose. Changes are not going to happen because I think about them, they’re going to happen because I choose to make them happen. I realize this may not be the most profound of revelations, but today it’s mine and I’m using that to move forward with my intention or theme for 2012. This is something that I’ve heard Jasmine talk about on her podcast for several years now and mentioned here and there around the internets and it’s high time I adopt it. It’s time for a new me. I mean, my new blog is called finding judi, right?

My theme for 2012 will be follow-through.
Say I decide I want to brush up on my Spanish. Do it!
I decide I want to organize my craft room. Do it!
The bathroom needs to be cleaned. Do it!

Or better yet, choose to do it. It is, after all, a choice that needs to be made.

The point of all this is that I’m tired of coming home from work, turning on the television, and then accomplishing nothing. It’s ridiculous. This is my time to fix it and feel better about myself and enjoy what I have and not squander it away.

So here is to a fresh new shiny 2012 and new adventures and epic times of being furiously happy!