Feels like a Friday

From the moment I woke up I could tell it was going to be one of those days where I don’t care to do one thing on my list. Well, maybe the drink water thing, but today is clearly telling me, “Relax, find a comfy spot on the couch, watch TV, knit”.

So, the question for today is:
* Do I plow through and get things done or do I listen to these inner thoughts and find a nice comfy spot on the couch?

I’m sure the reality will be a little bit of both. It is Friday after all.

Morning

It could be worse

When life gives you lemons… suck it up, make a face, then move along.

As I was working from the right over to the left of Serenity Harbor I realized that I was mismatched by one line. Meaning that the right hand side was one stitch lower than the left. Of course it is. It seems that it would have behooved me to actually check this more carefully as I was moving down those top sections with the fluffy clouds and cute little birds.

Luckily, I should be able to remove a section of land/water and no one will be the wiser, except for myself and the three people that might be reading this. You know who you are…

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So close!

So, remember when I said that I was going to complete each monthly installment within the month received for the Serenity Harbor Sampler? It would be nice to have a few more days of April for that particular plan. Maybe take a few of those days I didn’t need from March?

Anyway, I’m not going to worry myself about it. I mean, this is supposed to be fun, right? The only downside to this month’s crafty flakiness is that I’ll be out of town for a week and a half or so in May. Maybe I can bring it with me? It’s not like it’s enormous or anything…

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I wish I had editing software that would let me draw in the missing picture. Can anyone point me in the direction of what I could use to add some fancy arrows and text to my photos?

Changes

For a while, and by that I mean practically my entire life, I have been plagued with a severe case of super terrible time management*. Oddly, this didn’t translate too terribly much into my work life, but it has permeated my personal life for far too long. So, for the last year I’ve been reading blogs, books, and anything I could get my hands on to get myself on track.

The great thing about these kind of searches is that one typically receives enlightenment from the most unexpected places and for me it was signing up for Ramit Sethi’s 20X Your Potential email course. Day 1 was a physical challenge in which I held (mostly) a plank for 21 minutes, it was brutal! Day 2 started a more internal/mental approach and was essentially a day to set a long term goal that you’ve been avoiding. One of the steps was to meditate on that goal. Let me say first that I’ve been meditating on and off for a while now and though I believe it helps me in a lot of ways, I had never had a light bulb moment… until this past Tuesday. I’m not going to get into it here, but to put it simply, I see things in a slightly different way and it has made things much more clear and doable.

Now let’s skip to today, Day 5. The challenge was to give back, to do something for others instead of for yourself. Wow! This used to be something I was good at and let fall to the side. When I lived in Charlotte I volunteered at Animal Care and Control, I gave blood every eight weeks, I did a lot more than I’m doing now which is almost nothing. So now I’ve been challenged and it’s time to step it up.

On March 22nd I’ll be attending a volunteer orientation for Animal Care & Control
On March 26th I’ll be donating blood and setting up a regular schedule going forward
Today I donated through Kiva
On Monday I’ll be contacting my local ALS chapter about donating time

This internal shift feels good and I plan to make the most of it. What about you? What do you feel good about? I need to know!

*I once completed and entire Social Studies Fair the night before it was due. Ugh!

Epic Procrastination

Ahem… Hello there… It seems that I have been suffering from some sort of extreme procrastination when it comes to writing. There have been so so many times I have wanted to come back to this and talk about what has been going on and well, next thing you know its been so long that I almost felt silly even starting again. Nevertheless, I’m back with no guarantees on time tables, but with a promise that I will not let fear and worry rear it’s ugly head again. At least, not when it comes to this. Maybe.

Instead of attempting some sort of major game of catch up, I thought I would start with a single simple question…
What have I been cross-stitching?

At the beginning of the year I did another (yes, this is not my first rodeo) major sorting/culling of my cross-stitch accoutrements and decided that I need to spend more time focusing on one project instead of letting my monkey brain rule me. With that I decided to complete Savannah’s Curtsy by Mirabilia.

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She is almost complete. Above her, in a lovely script, will be the word Welcome.
I haven’t worked on her in about a week. I was running dangerously low on thread and didn’t want to continue until I was sure that the new batch wouldn’t look completely off as it would be a different dye lot. The good news is that it matches perfectly. The bad news* is that I’ll be out of town for a week and a half, which will postpone her a bit more.

In an effort at full disclosure, I did allow my monkey brain to take over in a moment of weakness. I signed up for a sampler that will be delivered in 12 easy installments! It was like the best infomercial ever, but wait, there’s more! Well, not really more… only if you count that I had to buy more fabric and thread so that I could get to work. Does that count as more? I’m fairly certain it does.

Behold, parts one and two of the Serenity Harbor Sampler by By the Bay Needleart.

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I know it doesn’t look too exciting at the moment, but it will. Of course, I also made a deal with myself that if I signed up for this I must complete each section in the month that I receive it. So far, so good, but these have been very light on the stitching. I’m pretty sure that by April I’ll be feeling the full brunt of my self made deal.

With that I will bid you adieu. I already have in mind a topic for my next post so keep an eye out.

* It’s hard to call this bad news as I’ll be in Cabo for a few days and then in WV to visit with family. Bad news indeed…

hidden potential, maybe

In between waiting for a load of laundry to stop spinning and before I run off to scrub the shower (cause those things don’t magically take care of themselves, apparently) I thought I would discuss a small personality flaw of mine.

magsI know, it looks like a pile of magazines, but what you’re actually looking at is a compulsive behavior. Growing up it was unicorns, stickers, and such. As an adult it’s been Barbies, Beanie Babies (embarrassing, but true), and crafting supplies which has ranged from patterns to yarn and everything in between. I’ve mostly broken out of this need to have more and more and more of something, but for some reason my current obsession seems to be these lovely glossy periodicals.

This is not all of them, but only the unread ones and this doesn’t even include my digital subscriptions… in my defense, sort of, I no longer have any physical subscriptions, but when I pass by a wall of magazines like this my heart races a little and I might break into a bit of a sweat. It’s almost like I’m gazing on a wall of potential, but we all know that’s not really how it works.

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So now I’ve placed myself on a strict moratorium of absolutely no magazines until we get packed up and move to our new place. That’s a month and half. Totally doable, but that means I have to figure out a way to buy groceries without passing this wall of temptation…

good times

The lazy blogger has struck again… and I have so much to talk about!

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it here, but we have been house hunting the past few months. And by that I mean we have spent almost every Saturday and Sunday traipsing around to various open houses looking and analyzing every detail of any home that fits our very specific criteria. It’s a mess out there people. I don’t know how many of you are privy to the ways of the San Francisco housing market, but it’s crazy town. The list price? A mere suggestion. Cash buyers? More than you would think possible. It’s been a bit daunting.

The good part though, is that we were not in any particular hurry, so being outbid by unseemly amounts wasn’t a huge deal. The great part is that last Tuesday we put in an offer for a place we really really liked. And we got it! Not without some good old fashioned trials and tribulations, but we are currently in escrow and crossing our fingers that the rest of the process goes off without a hitch. Even sitting here writing this a week later I’m still a bit in shock that we’re this close and I’m so super excited!

Part of the reason it was a little crazy making is that we had to sign all the docs and get our escrow account up and running on Wednesday (we accepted their counter offer that morning) cause we were leaving for New York City Thursday morning. Our timing is nothing if not impeccable.

Oh, and our trip to NYC? A-ma-zing*! Mike and Emily flew up to meet us and were able to meet up with several friends who live there now. It was really nice to spend a weekend walking the city, eating amazing* food with amazing* drinks, all in the company of great friends.

Good times, people, good times.

* just for you Mike…

well laid plans

This morning I woke up with a really terrible headache. You know the kind, the kind that makes you want to crawl back into bed for a few more hours and try again later.

So for a little motivation I ran out for some of my favorite coffee and a delicious fruit danish and took some time to get some reading in.

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It totally helped* and I was back on track. Sometimes a little indulgence is exactly what I need to get going.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it here, but I set up some crafty things that I want to accomplish for May, because lists are what get me through life the day.

For May
Finish Roadside Attraction socks
* Weave in ends and block the Rockefeller shawl
* Finish the white on santa’s beard
* Finish 1 Fiddlehead Mitten
* Finish 2 preemie hats
* Cast on one new project

Yesterday I finished up the toe of my second Roadside Attraction sock, wove in the ends, and then wore them out for a bit. Love these socks so so much!

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I really love the simple design. I’m pretty sure I’ll be making another pair of these. Maybe with a little longer leg next time.

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Since the socks are done I’ve started back on santa’s beard. Seriously… so much white. After the white is done I’ll need to add the off-white, but for now I’m going to focus on the pure white bits.

Progress.

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 I’m fairly confident that I can get these things done this month**. I’ve even calculated how many ends their are to weave in on the shawl (48) and how many days left in the month (23) so that I’ll know how many need to be done each day (2.09). I’m nothing if not a planner…
 
* This post is brought to you by the magical danish and awesome latte.
** Or at least 4 out of 6… that’s not bad, right?

happy cinco de mayo

Good morning world! Or really, almost noon, but hey it’s my blog, right? And yes, since it’s my blog I can use a thousand commas and start sentences with and… but I digress.

Today is my birthday and I thought I would say a quick hello to everyone out there and talk a little about my annual birthday angst.
I have this weird relationship with my birthday where I don’t want to make a big deal of it, but I kinda want it to be a big deal. And I don’t really care if people know my age, but yeah, I kinda do care. Can you tell what kind of morning it’s been so far? It’s been a morning of contemplation dashed with a smidge of serious reflection and what do I have to show for it. Not much except for plans to make myself a better me. Not sure what that means, but there it is.

So here is to another year of living my life in my own personal crazy making sort of way and  allowing myself to not take myself so seriously. Maybe let go of some of those internal rules that I create for myself that add to my neurosis. We’ll see.

Speaking of rules… I do want to add one though (I know, I know). A good one. I want to write here at least once a week. About anything. I enjoy putting my rambling thoughts down in a semi-cohesive sense, but what scares me is putting them out for the world to see. Nothing like a little healthy fear to get the blood pumping.

So no rules on what the content will be. It could be knitting. It could be navel gazing. It could be about my need to rearrange the cutlery when I’m at a restaurant. It could be about how I am never quite sure how to end a post…

 

 

no more guilt

Monday morning, at yoga, our instructor spoke about going about our daily activities from a place of love and not guilt. This really struck a chord with me. The reason? Every morning I sit down and write a to do list and every day I look at that list and then swiftly begin the process of procrastinating. Now mind you, most of these items aren’t difficult. Some may take time and some effort, but generally they’re not what you would think of as difficult items. Yet, I procrastinate and the more I procrastinate the guiltier I feel and then I procrastinate even more and then I feel like an ass for not getting stuff done.

So. Yeah. Not really helpful in feeling good about what one has accomplished for the day. I may be getting things done, but my brain puts up such a fight that it’s kinda exhausting. I just feel, well, over it. So here’s what I’m doing. I’m reminding myself why the item needs to be done. I know, sounds silly, but when I look at my to do list and I see wash dishes I’m changing that internal monologue from ‘I really should get this done before Joe* gets home cause the kitchen looks like crap’ to ‘I’m going to feel really good when this is done and the kitchen will look great without all the clutter’.

The other thing I realized while contemplating all of this is that I’ve been placing rules around things that I enjoy so that I’ll do them. Let me say that again, I’ve placed rules around things I enjoy so that I’ll do them. Is it just me or does that make zero sense? On that note there will be no more crafty Friday or whatever Tuesday posts. Clearly none of that was working and it just created guilt around something that I initially started because I love to write.

So instead of guilting my way through the day with all the should’s that hang out in my crazy brain I’m going to think about why I’m really doing them and work to turn my mind over to the joy of it… even for things as mundane as washing dishes.

What do you guys think? Are you living your life from a place of guilt or love? Also, while flitting around the internet I found this post about guilt that I really enjoyed.

 

* To be clear, Joe is not nagging me about things undone. This is all in the fabulous world of negative talk that goes on in my head.